When I first started my job, simply walking through the door to start the day was hard for me.
Not because I didn’t want to be there but because that walk through the door reminded me of everything I did not want to be reminded of.
I was reminded of a time in my life when I felt so much shame and guilt for all of the decisions I was making as a result of things that happened to me or as a result of my own ignorance. My life was spiraling out of control and I held onto people and things that caused nothing but pain and heartache because I simply didn’t know how to hold onto anything else.
By the grace of God, I found His hand in my mess to hold onto. God brought me to a safe place: His arms. God renewed my life and all of my old ways and traumatic past was gone and all that was left was a new life in Him.
Instead of remembering all of the ways God had saved me and remade me, I was focusing on all of the awful things I once did. Then one day it hit me: I can either walk through this door and think of who I used to be or I can walk through this door and think of what God has done for me.
God has done a miracle in my life. Years ago you could have found me walking through those doors defeated, desperate for help. Now, when I walk through those doors each day I am nothing other than God’s redeemed daughter. Because of Jesus I have victory and because of Jesus I am now able to help those God brings through the door.
Walking through the door for work is now something I look forward to as it is a moment to stop and give thanks to God for all He has done for me.
It is a true gift to be reminded each day of God’s transforming love and an even greater gift to share that love with the people I meet in this life that have found themselves in a place I once was.
He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the LORD. Psalm 40:2-3