Finding Your Heartbeat

The view from my current seat is so lovely.  I would take a picture and show you it is just that the camera really does not do this moment justice.  It is not possible to capture this beauty in a photo.  I am sitting in our living room staring out one of the four great windows with sheer curtains allowing just the right amount of sunlight into the room.  Outside there are cars and bikes and people passing by as I sit still reflecting on all God has done, is doing, and will do in this current season of my life.

There has been joy.  There has been tears.  There has been sadness.  There has been excitement.  And yet through it all there has been One Constant leading me through it all; God Himself.

He gently puts His hand in mine and asks me to trust the adventure with Him.  I do not know what these next six months have in store for me and all of those around me, but God does!  He has been preparing us for this moment.  He has done the work to get us here, He is continuing the work, and all we have to do is trust.

I really want to share something that stuck out in our class this week.  The lectures have been extensive, compelling, informative, and yet so enjoyable!  This week the speaker spoke something that really resonated in my heart, “Know how to align your heart with God’s.  Let your heartbeat be His.”

God’s name represents Power, Majesty, Love.  Why wouldn’t we want our hearts to beat right alongside His?

Truth is, to align our hearts with God’s we must allow our heart to be broken by the very things that break His heart.  It is true this Amazing, Beautiful, Majestic, All Powerful God has a heart that is breaking.  (Genesis 6:6)

Dare to pray a bold prayer that God will hear and will answer.

God, break my heart for what breaks yours.

Don’t let this prayer be empty words.  Speak this prayer from your heart to His.

God breaks our hearts perfectly.  He breaks our hearts to use us to bring His healing and restoration to the hearts out there that have been broken by the wrong hands.

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.  Psalm 34:18

He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.  Psalm 40:2

Having his heartbeat will lead us to places we never thought we would go.

I never thought I would be in Amsterdam attending a counseling school in order to gain the proper training to bring God’s restoration to the young girls and women trapped in the horrors of trafficking.  When I think about how I got here, I simply have to smile.

Little did I know when I begged God to give me His desires for my heart that I was asking Him to bring me here.  I am constantly asking God to help my heart to feel only what He wants my heart to feel.  His desires have become my desires.

I remember the day I prayed and asked God to break my heart for what breaks His.  I could have never known the impact this prayer would have on my life.  Slowly God started showing me what His heart was breaking for.  God broke my heart with the piece of His that breaks for the young girls and women suffering through the injustice of sex-trafficking.

My heartbeat is God’s and it beats for the girls waiting to be rescued by God into a life of hope and freedom.  What is yours?


God Knows!

I am so excited to share this update with you all!  Today was our first official day of classes.  I honestly went into today not knowing what to expect.  Many of you asked detailed questions about the school I am attending before I left.  I remember feeling a bit embarrassed when I heard your questions.  I knew they were good questions to be asking I just didn’t know the answers.  I went into this school trusting God knew all of the answers.

Today proves trusting God is never going to lead us down a path that was not intended for us.  I am completely certain (if I wasn’t before) that I am intended by God to be here on this path, at this school, hand in hand with Jesus!

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.  Romans 12:2

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.  2 Corinthians 10:5

While I was in counseling, these verses above were my theme verses.  I used these verses to overcome the lies I believed that tried to destroy me.  These are two of my favorite verses in the Bible because God has used them in my life in such special ways.  They hold a special place in my heart.

The reason for sharing this is because as I walk into our class this morning the very first thing I see in the front of the room is Renewing the Mind!

As we looked at these verses in class and received an assignment to journal and meditate on Romans 12:2 I could not help but become overwhelmed with thankfulness to God!  This is even more confirmation to me that God has been preparing me for this school.  I just love so much how God is always laying something on my heart and I never know when or how He is going to use it but in time He always reveals it to me in His special way!

Today God revealed to me that He has been preparing the way for me to come to this counseling school during the “waiting years” of my life in which I thought time was just wasting away.  How thankful I am to God that He never wastes one moment of our seeking Him.  Even if we don’t feel anything in the moment, or do not understand the “big picture” God will come through.  He will use everything for His good purposes.

Thank you Jesus for “knowing” when I simply do not know.

Thank you for reading 🙂

With His Love and Mine,


His Journey

Here I am after my first day of classes in Amsterdam and all I can say I know for certain is that this is God’s journey and I feel extra privileged to be a part of it!

Since I departed Pittsburgh on Monday God has been paving the way for me to find His peace and His goodness through it all.  I have learned this lesson before but now it is fresh on my mind again, God always comes through.  I have seen this over and over again since Monday.

God came through when I accidentally over packed my suitcase.  I happen to think 76 pounds is quite light for 6 months’ worth of items but apparently unless I would like to pay $400 I was only allowed 50 pounds!  God knew this was going to happen and He provided me with the kindest lady at the United counter.  She helped me sort out my luggage to the appropriate weight, and one of my kind friends purchased a duffle bag for me to use as my carry-on bag.  Here was the interesting part; I was now stuck with the world’s heaviest duffle bag and the world’s heaviest backpack as my carry-on luggage.  The woman at the ticket counter said this was just fine.  The man at the gate had a different opinion.  Again God knew this was going to happen and I was able to check both of my bags at the gate.  This truly was so critical because there is no way I would have been able to fit either bag on the plane!

I had been praying for months that God would bring friendly people along my path for my trip because I was so fearful to travel by myself.  God really answered this prayer!  God came through and as I was walking to my gate a man came up behind me and offered to carry the world’s heaviest duffle bag for me!  He took it all the way to my gate for me.  I shared with him how he is a true answer to my prayers.

Because I ended up not having a bag to take with me on the plane, I decided to take a little Bible with me so I had something to read on the flight to DC.  It just so happened that the man sitting next to me on the plane pulled out his small Bible too.  When I saw his Bible I was instantly comforted.  I immediately knew we had the best thing to ever have in common with someone: a relationship with God!  Sure enough we had a wonderful conversation the whole flight.  We did not get much reading done, but I sure am thankful he took that Bible out of his bag.  He will never know how God used that to bring me so much comfort and peace on this trip.

We traded contact information and I told him I would keep him updated on my trip.  After getting off the plane I just had to send him an email explaining again how thankful I was that God brought him along my path.  He again was an answer to my prayers.  It just so happens he was the answer to my friend’s prayers as well.  One of my friends wrote me a letter to read on the plane.  When I was settled in on the plane to Amsterdam I opened her note.  I literally could not believe what I read in her note:

I just prayed that God would put someone in your travel time today or tomorrow that you could either be a light to them or they to you or you would both be a light to each other.

After reading this I thanked God for answering this prayer and using this man to be a light on my path to Amsterdam.

Arriving to Amsterdam was so strange for me.  I had never been to a foreign place by myself before.  I was so tired that it just didn’t seem real that I was really here!

Once arriving on the base where I will be staying I experienced quite the culture shock.  A combination of uncomfortableness and homesickness overcame me.  It was in this moment I started to doubt everything.  I thought for sure I made a mistake in coming here.  I thought for sure I was going to go book a flight for home as soon as possible.  I called my sister and she prayed for me.  After we ended our call I noticed an email from my new friend from the plane the day before.  God used the words in His email to get my heart and mind back on track.  The doubts faded and a peace invaded me.  Oh how thankful I am for who God brings into our lives and the way He uses them for such amazing purposes.  I know there is a special reason for this person entering my life.

Now onto today:

During quiet time with the Lord this morning I specifically asked Him to bring me lots of little things throughout the day to comfort me.  Once again God answered this prayer!  When we arrived to class we started with a time of worship.  The very first song we sang just so happens to be one of my favorites and my mother’s favorite as well.  This song always makes me think of my mom and dad.  I was so comforted in knowing God answered my prayer in this special way.  It was in this moment I knew God was going to continue to answer this prayer for me.

The name of this blog is inspired from a verse in Isaiah, 58:12.  The verse says, …you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.  This verse God laid so heavy on my heart.  During class we received our reading materials.  One of the books reminds me of this verse.  Seeing this book not only comforted me but also confirmed that God has me here for a reason!  I am expecting Him to teach me even more about what this verse means specifically for me and why He has laid it so very heavy on my heart.

I know that whatever God does in and through this school is going to be better than anything I can think or imagine.  I am so excited to see God work!  I am so thankful that He has led me to this place for “such a time as this.”

Thank you for your continued love, support, and prayers.  I am missing you all so very much!

Until next time,


Weakness: Strength in Disguise

I cannot believe in exactly one week I will be starting my first day of school in Amsterdam!  I have to say I am completely overwhelmed by the outpouring of love, prayers, support, and encouragement I have received from so many.  It brings me to tears and the only response I have is the most thankful heart you can ever imagine!

I want to share with you what God has been showing and teaching me over and over again as I prepare for this new adventure with Him.  You can read all about this new adventure here.

2 Corinthians 12:9 says, But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

This verse has been invading my life at the most convenient times for the past couple of months.  Each time, God has been helping me understand this verse and my weaknesses in a new way.

In the past couple of months, I have been stretched to do things that I felt were impossible for me.  I was finding myself out of my comfort zone with weakness surrounding me.  I did not and still do not know the outcomes of major changes God is bringing to my life.  All of this made me focus on just how weak I am.

One evening as I sat on my bed praying to God for help dreading the next big thing I had to do the next day, I truly had an “ah-ha” moment.  If I were not weak in this area I would not be seeking God for His strength and power.  I would simply be trying to do it all in my own strength and power.  By the end of my prayer for help, my heart was smiling so big knowing God helped me to understand that being weak is one of the best things we can be!  Weakness brings us to the place of God’s power.  His power working in and through our weaknesses is stronger than any strength we can muster up on our own.

I need His strength.  I need His power.  And the only way I can experience this is allowing myself to just be weak.  For when I am weak then I am strong.  (2 Cor. 12:10)

Who among you fears the LORD and obeys the word of his servant? Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the LORD and rely on their God.  Isaiah 50:10

Father, You know my weaknesses and You know what Your power can and will do through my every weakness.  Please give me the courage to give You my weaknesses and allow You to be my strength.  In Your name I pray, Amen.